Crack in the road.
To say I haven’t feeling like myself lately would be an understatement at this point. In the last few days, I just realize that I am frustrated with a lot of things. My life feels stagnant, even through attempts to change my surroundings, try new things, everything.
Every day I have writing ideas. Whether they be blog posts, ideas to edit and change my book, or otherwise. The problem with all of that is that they don’t get done. I grab my laptop, sit down, and wind up Facebooking, watching TV, or playing games as if that suffices for being creative.
Can I say why that is? No. I have always been strange about writing, as in letting people read it could wind up with me being embarrassed or people making fun of me. Has that ever happened? No. I just have a strange aversion to writing, even though it is something I need to feel and stay sane.
Maybe it is the lack of craft shows and things to stay busy. It’s any number of things, but let it be known that I am trying my hardest to keep up with it. I don’t much believe in New Year’s resolutions, but I really want to make this one stick.
When I got into blogging seriously months ago, I had a calendar. I had Post-It notes and ideas for blogs for every day of the week for a whole month. Life happened. Excuses happened. I had to learn how to live by myself again, learn to be myself again, and it was not an easy thing. It got longer and longer between posts, and eventually it was a post a month - if that. It isn’t something that I wanted. I had fun coming up with DIY’s every week, reading a book every week, and all around blogging about my life. I don’t lead a perfect life by any means, and my blog reflects that, but I was happy with what I was putting together. Now, I’m just unhappy, all the time, and don’t know what to do to turn it around. My first step in doing so, though, is increasing my writing.
Writing will turn into blogging, and if I can just get over my fear, or fatigue, or whatever my excuse is from one day to another, I may just be able to get through this crack in the road, once and for all.
If you haven’t yet checked out my blog, find it at http://www.anepicliz.com.
